Sweet summertime

Hi, all! I know I haven't updated much, but right now there just isn't much to update on. I wish there was. I started af yesterday. I used oils his past cycle so a small part of me was really hoping they would help me get pregnant. LOL. I can tell you that one of the oils does really help with my cramps though.I just rub a drop or two on my abdomen and then I have a decrease of cramps. We have a little over 3 months till our adoption seminar and it is a two day class. The older I get the more times flies. It seemed so far away, but now it is coming up close. Last week was my due date of the little bean I miscarried. I did pretty well. Of course, I don't sit here and dwell on it, but sometimes I think about it. It made me a little sad to think I could be holding my baby instead of still sifting through infertility land...but we pick up the pieces and we move on. We become stronger and wait for God's timing and the little blessing(s) he has for us. One day we will look back and wonder how we made it through this journey through "hell" at times. At times, I do wonder how we make it. We just do. We pray, love each other, and become stronger in our faith. We deal with situations, judgement from others, and heartache constantly. Here we are though...still going strong and better than ever. You know why? Because, when you want something bad enough you keep fighting for it! No matter the judgement, people who talk about you, or what you have to do to get it. I am well aware of family who have judged our choices and paths we have taken to try to build a family, but until you walk in our shoes then you really have no idea. :)

A new day brings new beginnings.

I have had a few days to let everything sit in and think about our next steps. I strongly believe that God can pull me through this situation and miracles can happen. I am not sure what our future looks like at this time, but I know one day Chris and I will be parents. It just may not happen the way we want it to. Since our appointment we have done some research, I spoke to a friend about essential oils, and I saw my acupuncturist. The research we did was on the endometriosis diet. It is very strict, but I feel like I do not have much choice right now. I am going to start it after Christmas. I will be giving up a lot of the foods I love, but hopefully this will help in some way. I am also continuing acupuncture of course and I am going to add an Essential oil up till I start IVF then I have to stop the oil. Praying the surgery and the new adjustments will help us. I am continuing to trust God and pray we will get pregnant and stay pregnant with a little miracle. The past couple of days have been pretty difficult and I am ready to get past this bump in the road. (It feels more than a bump though). It really sucks that my Endo is so bad. I wish I would have known when I was younger that I had it so that maybe we could have done more...