I know I haven't given my blog attention or have I been keeping up with the blogs I follow. I need to get back on with writing and following my awesome blogs I follow. A lot of things have been changing for me lately. Some I will continue to keep to myself for now and others I will just go ahead and talk about.
First, I am going back to teaching. After taking a year off I was offered a Kindergarten position. It was really hard for me to decide to leave the family I nanny for, but at this time going back to full time work is really the best for Chris and I for many reasons. I am really nervous, but excited.
Second, lately I have been pretty up and down on how I feel. Sometimes I feel a lone in this huge world of infertility. At times I feel like no one cares or remembers that I am still struggling. Why should they? It is not their journey. A lot of my support groups have gone on to pregnancy and having their children. They move on and enjoy their new blessings...as they should. Then there is some couples still fighting through this awful journey that so many don't realize the pain of. One day this will end and we will enjoy our blessings too, but until then some days I will have good days and sometimes I will have bad days. I try to have more good days than bad days though!
Today, I met my new nephew. That makes three nephews and four nieces for me! A friend sent me a private message and said, "You look great with a baby." This comment made me smile and truly made my day. I can't wait till I am holding my blessing that God chose especially for me and Chris. This wait and journey will be so worth it at that point.
