Ask God for the desire of your heart...

My goal for this IVF cycle is to take more pictures of our journey. I plan on posting them on my blog and I am in the process of making a scrapbook of our journey. I will include pictures and cards from my ttc girls. 

I paid for my IVF medicine and it should be delivered next Tuesday. Our insurance had us switch pharmacies and now we are paying double for our meds then we did last time. It is frustrating. Oh well. At least we have insurance..right? 

I bought a new book called Prayers & Promises for Supernatural Childbirth. I highly recommend it. It is a short read. Lots of scriptures and prayers to guide you through the journey without fear in your heart. I am praying over my body and asking God for the desire in my heart. I would appreciate you all to pray for us too. 

I made a shirt for my IVF cycle. I will upload a picture soon. The front says I love (heart) IVF. Then the back says Team Baby Mace. 
I plan on wearing it for my retrieval and transfer. I have an appt in two weeks and I am excited to get the show on the road! :)

Praying for strength through this process and less fear. I feel really good about our next cycle. 

A little update for my readers.

I wanted to give a quick update since I am going to share this blog post. First, I wanted to share my weight loss with you all. As most of you know I have stage 4 endo. I have been doing the endo diet for awhile. I can't change that I have endometriosis, but I can change my diet. So, I have been working really hard on that. I am doing gluten free, dairy free, etc. I have a cheat night once a week and usually on Friday nights. I have lost 20 lbs and I am down a pant size and shirt size. I am pretty happy about this. I really hope these changes help us with our next IVF cycle. I still do acupuncture too. Ever since changing my diet I have felt better, less cramps during my time of the month. So many benefits to this change.

Chris and I both started antibiotics for a future IVF. I am in the suppression part of IVF. IVF is planned for April. We are excited and scared. My first IVF cycle failed and a lot of things went wrong. I had low estrogen and not good quality of eggs of the 9 that were retrieved. My second IVF cycle I had 21 eggs retrieved, but my estrogen was higher and I was put on meds for hyperstimulation. Sadly, IVF 2 ended in an early miscarriage. We were really sad about it, but we were also a step closer than we have ever been. It was the first pregnancy we experienced in two years of trying. We have been trying to grow our family for over 2 1/2 years now. We are hopeful for IVF 3 and really hope it works for us.  We are trying to stay positive about this cycle, but also trying to prepare for the future if it doesn't work. We are just not sure we can do this anymore. We are both ok with adoption so that may be a plan in the future. For now, we are focusing on our IVF cycle and being positive.

We sing this song at church sometimes and it always speaks to me. I know God never leaves our side. 

Antibiotics are evil!

On Thursday Chris and I started the antibiotics. They are evil! Haha. Last night I took them and my stomach was aching something fierce! It was bad! I ended up barfing my guts out twice. Ugh! Never ever take them on an empty stomach! Mine wasn't empty, but apparently it wasn't full enough! Yucky..I hate that. I also started bc and thankfully it ended my period. Yay! I usually have 7 day long periods..so having it shortened is kinda amazing! :)

The other day while driving I was listening to K-Love. I always listen to K-Love, but Overcomer came on. I wanted to share this song. I am already an overcomer and one day my infertility journey will be over and I will over come this too! I hope you enjoy.

Endometriosis

If you would like more info on Endometriosis  then here is a good site.  I thought I would share because it gives a lot of information and how it interferes with peoples lives that have endo.

Endo link

Starting BC/ IVF #3!

It seems forever since my last IVF cycle. I miscarried in October and time seem slow, until now. I am like wow it is almost time for IVF #3. Third time is a charm? Right?!?! So, here is a little update: AF came (period) today full force. I called my clinic to be placed on the calendar for our IVF/ICSI. The nurse called me back and gave me information and ordered my meds. I start birth control Thursday-March 12th. Last time I wasn't suppressed so hopefully the extra bc will help. I will have an u/s with Dr. R on March 6th. I will start my lupron injections on March 12th! If I am suppressed I will start my regular injections on March 22nd. The projected date for Retrieval is March 31, but I am no newbie to the IVF world and I know that everytime for me it has been pushed back! So, We are looking at the beginning of April for retrieval and transfer! I am excited, but a little scared to be honest. Time to write my verses and encouraging quotes on my mirror again. Please continue to pray for us. IVF cycles are always a little scary. A lot of time, energy, and money go into them. Thank you to each one of you that support us through prayers, encouraging words, and the friendships.