Comfort my heart God

I am not sure what my deal is latley...maybe it is the long wait between IVF. I start my injections on the 18th. I am still so nervous. I pray for peace and comfort everyday. I pray that whatever God has in his plans for Chris and I that we are ok with it and that our hearts are at peace. We were going to go to an adoption informational meeting yesterday, but Chris had a work deal. So we can just make an appointment with them by ourselves. The problem I am running into with this whole adoption thing is, that moment when I turn and face that adoption demon in the face is the day I believe I am saying good bye to the possibility of ever experiencing pregnancy...I didn't say mom for a reason. I will be a mom one day and that child will be mine either way. I guess I want to give this next IVF cycle another chance before I feel like I am giving up on the last of the hope I have left. We said we would do three cycles, but emotionally I don't know if we can. Unless you have been down this path you have no idea what we are experiencing. So here I am praying that we will see a miracle in September, but I also know that it could not happen. That is a daily struggle for me. Chris is so supportive and is on the wagon for adoption...and don't get me wrong I totally am too. I want to adopt, but I also would like to be able to wait awhile before we do because it is expensive. Currently we have wonderful insurance coverage for our infertility. I believe God has wonderful amazing plans for us! I truly can't wait to see God's plan in our life. I wish it wasn't this difficult..but I guess nothing is easy, right?
Lately, I have been feeling lonely. It is really hard to talk to some people about what we are going through because they do not understand. I feel like it is more a pain to talk about because I don't want to annoy people, but we really need all the support and prayers right now we can get. I know that sometimes I fall short of praising my God. I am thankful for what God has done with Chris and my life. My relationship grows deeper with God everyday and I am trying to be a better Christian daily. I will fall short sometimes, but I hope and pray that others can see the amazing things God is doing in our lives.