While I am waiting..

A friend/blog reader sent me this song. I thought I would share because I think it is perfect for the infertility journey. Enjoy. Sorry for the short blog post, but I wanted to share this. I hope all of you can find comfort in Jesus.

Being a peace with my infertility

As most of you know I have been on my new diet for three weeks now. That is right, 3 weeks! I have lost 12 lbs also. :) Yes, this diet is hard, but I feel like it is worth it. Chris and I are trying to decide if we want to postpone our next cycle or not. We feel like we may want to give the diet more time to work. We will decide in Feb. what we want to do. I am also buying my essential oils Friday. I will start using those. 

Today while I was driving I just prayed that God would put us at peace even while we are waiting. I have no idea what our future looks like or if it will turn out the way we want it to, but I want to be at peace. I want to stop worrying and being upset during breaks of treatment etc. This is hard...it is hard to give it all to God, but we have to. We have to be happier and live life to the fullest instead of in this crazy infertility mindset. Chris and I have put a lot of things on hold over our infertility journey. Vacations, trips, boats, etc. Well, we have almost decided that we are going to get a camper trailer. Friday we will make our final decision. Wish us luck! 

This may sound lame, but lately I have been kind of down on the thought that all my friends have babies or about to have babies. I feel like they will all be too busy for me when the times comes around for me. I know parenting and being a new mom is hard, but sometimes I really do feel like they are making new lives and making new friends with children already. I really hope it is not true, but that has been something I have worried about for a while. Now, I am going to stop worrying about this and give it to God. It is out of my control and I have to realize that.

This weekend I have two birthday parties to attend. One is for the little boy I nanny and the other is my best friend's daughter's first birthday party! Crazy busy Saturday! It will be fun through.

My prayer request:
1.) That we can decide if we want to postpone treatment and be completely at peace with our choice!
2.) That we stop worrying about our infertility
3.) We focus on each other and fun things to do together! 
4.) I still would love to adopt one day and if it is in God's plan that it will be spoken to us. And, that our families will embrace our choices and support us. 
5.) Continue to pray for our IVF cycle #3.
 

Sunshine award

 

 I was nominated for the sunshine award from body shop girl. The sunshine award is awarded to women in the infertility community that bring sunshine to other girls' lives. How sweet! So I am going to answer her questions and pick 5 other bloggers to award the sunshine award to.


1. Did you always want to be a mother?

Yes, I have always wanted to be a mother. When I was really young I thought I wanted 7 kids! Hahaha!! Now, I would be happy with just one little blessing.

2. At this moment, do your bra and underwear match?
No, I am actually not wearing a bra currently. :)

3. Do you believe in soul mates?
Yes, I am married to my soul mate. We started dating in high school. 

4. What show is returning this month that you are excited to watch? Why?

Switched at Birth. It is one of the few shows I actually watch on a regular basis. I just really enjoy the show. 


5. Do you have a predetermined limit for when you no longer will TTC?

No. I feel that God will place it on my heart when the time is to stop or keep moving forward. I feel if it is God's plan for us to adopt and stop IVF cycles we will know.

6. Name a personal quirk that drives your partner crazy.

I have to be early everywhere. It drives him crazy! LOL

7. If I try to friend you on Facebook, will you pretend to not have one?

LOL no. I love all in infertility sisters.


8. Do you worry more about the appearance of your body or of your face?

My body

9. What do you most look forward to as a mother?

Having a special bond with my child that compares to nothing I have experienced before. 

10. If fertility and money were of no consequence, how many kids would you have?

I would have 3 children

To those who bring sunshine in my life:
http://www.jesseandlauren.com/ 
http://waitingforbabybird.com/ 
http://smalltownfamily2011.blogspot.com/ 
http://andbabymakesthree3.blogspot.com/ 
http://missingbump.blogspot.com/ 

Here is your questions:
1. Does anyone else in your family struggle with infertility?
2. What is your favorite sport to watch?
3. If all of us TTC sisters could meet up, where would you want to go?
4. What is the craziest thing you have tried while ttc?
5. How many siblings do you have?
6. Do you enjoy the mountains or the ocean more? Why?
7. What are you going to enjoy the most about being a mom?
8. How many pets do you have? What are their names?
9. What is your favorite movie?
10. What have you learned most about yourself during this ttc journey?

Hello 2014

I am so happy to see 2014. 2013 was a rough one and I feel like things can only get better from here. I wanted to update you all on my new diet change for my endo. I have been doing it for 7 days now. It has been really hard...I mean really hard! The hardest part so far is the no dairy and wheat. Gluten free bread has been rough. I am finding more gluten free products that I like though. I also think when eating out can be very difficult since there is usually not much on the menus that I can actually eat. Yesterday we went to a Thunder basketball game and we had some amazing friends invite us in the suite area. It was awesome. Thankfully they had food I could eat....until the dessert. Everyone was eating these yummy and very big desserts. My mouth was watering. I didn't touch any! I was proud of myself. This diet is not a New Year resolution. It is for my fertility. I want my next IVF cycle to work so much that I am willing to about try anything. I can already tell a difference in the way I feel. I am less tired. I will see if I notice changes in cramps/pain while I am on my period soon. I have already lost about 4 lbs. I do want to lose weight so this diet is a win win! For each goal of weight I lose I get something special. I made a list out last week with Chris. I am excited because I am almost to my first 5lb goal! :) 
Please continue to pray for Chris and I. We should be starting meds in Feb. I pray I can stay positive and encouraged during IVF #3. Please 2014 let this be our year!