What's going on in the Mace family?

Hello all! Again...I really don't have much to blog and update about. We recently received our home study paper work that we can slowly start working on. We have to submit it all together and there are parts we have to wait till our class. It is a lot of stuff to fill out and honestly it makes me overwhelmed, but it will all be ok.

Chris and I decided to buy a boat! We have been wanting one for a little over a year, but we kept saying we might be pregnant..blah blah. So we finally just jumped on it! Yes, we know we could possibly get pregnant or get matched quickly, but the bigger picture here is that we are not letting infertility control us. We took the boat out Friday. It is a learning curve, but we had a lot of fun. I see lots of fun weekends ahead of this summer! 

That is about all going on in the Mace family. :) 

Overcoming fear

I feel like I am at a standstill with everything and don't have much to blog about. Today I read a friends blog about fear and it had me really thinking. Honestly, she is a lot better at blogging, writing, and standing in her faith than I am. I feel that sometimes I don't always lean on my faith in difficult times and really that comes from fear. Fear has really taken over my life. In the 3 years of fighting through infertility I have let fear take over...sadly. I have fears of never having children, never getting pregnant(I would be lying if I didn't tell you that I have this desire still), adoption fears, failed adoption, and the list really could go on. I don't think I am a bad person for having fear because really it is human nature, but as a Christian I know that God is my strength and I need to not have these fears. In a book I am currently reading it calls fear like cancer. Fear will eat away our faith! It is true it really does. When I have fear I start questioning and worrying about everything that is out of my control. We need to recognize the fear and let them go. I am trying my best to let go of the fears. I am not perfect and never will be so I know fear will creep in my life. My goal is to refocus the fears and lean on my faith more. I need to stop looking at all the wrong that "could" go wrong and believe! Believe that one day I will be rocking my sweet God chosen baby to sleep. Really that picture makes me a lot happier than the fears I have. The past few days I have some rough moments. Moments of sadness...especially with Mother's Day. Moments of sadness because my due date is coming up. Moments where I really wonder if God's plan is for me to be a parent. I have to let this all go. I have to trust God's words and promises to me. I will overcome this...I will be a mom soon. I will overcome these fears because God is my refuge and strength. God loves his people and he loves me. What a wonderful God we have. A loving God who will pull us through any situation in life. Everything in life isn't easy...we all have situations in life that tear us down, but God never leaves us! Isn't that awesome that God will never leave our sides even when we fail him daily!! What an awesome God we serve.

Application accepted

Our application was accepted to the agency we applied to. We have an invitation to attend the class, but it is not till October. The June class is already full. 


I wanted to share this youtube video for all that struggle with infertility, miscarriage, infant loss, still born, etc. You are loved and remember you have so much support behind you! I have an angel baby..I only was pregnant a short time, but that loss still hurts as my due date is quickly approaching. 

A compliment goes a long way!

We meet with our doctor tomorrow to discuss our failed IVF cycle tomorrow. I really have no idea what he is going to tell us. We submitted our first part of our adoption application last week. Now, we are waiting to hear if that agency accepts our application so we can move onto the class and home study paper work. 

I was talking to a girl I met through one of my sites I am on. She also has Endometriosis. She read my blog and then sent me a private message. She told me that she admired my strength to share my blog publicly and that I have a gift of writing. This really touched my heart because about 6 months ago I had a family member put me down for blogging and sharing about my journey. When I started blogging it was to express myself and to hopefully help someone through their journey. Even if it is only one person. She will never know how much those words meant to me!