Update

We have about 2 weeks till my injections start. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I have prayed a lot and I am trying to stay at peace about everything. I am still having hot flashes and headaches. The mood swings are still hanging around. :) Beware. Hahaha. All my injections arrived last week. Chris and organized them in containers. I added a picture of some of the injections I will be doing. Part of it is in the fridge.

 

 

 

I am excited that April is finally here..well tomorrow! I am excited because we get to start our next part of our journey..and hopefully it will be a positive outcome! Please continue to keep Chris and I in your prayers. We really need them and appreciate all the prayers. I just wanted to give a quick little update! I hope you all have a great Easter!

Oh Lupron..I hate you...

Last month while I was on my first injection of Lupron I had terrible headaches, didn't sleep well, hot flashes, and a few bad mood swings. WELL, this month (my second injection), I am having all the above, but my mood swings are far worse. I mean I got upset over a lost key to our clubhouse..yeah..like crying and yelling upset that lasted like an hour. Really?!?!?! Ugh. I really hate that I feel this way and it's kind of embarrassing. Through this process I feel like a bad wife, friend, daughter, sister, cousin, etc. I really hope all my family and friends know that I care and I am sorry that this journey has put so much emotional crap on relationships. I guess it's only temporary. Right? I know I have used this e-card, but dang it's true.

Today, I called Medco(our mail in order for prescriptions) to see what the damage will be for my medications. Without insurance it will run anywhere between 2500-3000 dollars. Luckily, we have great insurance and our total will be about 178 dollars for all my injections. I should be setting up my shipping date on Monday. I am still really nervous about all these injections.

Start of IVF

Today the nurse from Bennet Fertility called to tell me to call my doctor to set up our first appointment. I called my nurse and set up our first appointment which will be: a mock transfer, suppression check, and mapping. I will start my daily Lupron injections on April 17th. I will find out more during the mapping of my schedule..so I can tell you more later. I am excited, but nervous! Continue to pray for Chris and I. Chris goes in next Tuesday for a few test as well.

IVF Class

Yesterday I had my second injection of Lupron. Oh how I love Lupron.  ;) The headaches and hot flashes are great..hahaha.

Well, today we went to our IVF class..and we left slightly overwhelmed. It is a lot to take in and a lot of emotional feelings also come with this all. We should me setting up our Mapping Schedule soon. My nurse said I should be able to start my daily Lupron injections in about a month. As I find out more about our schedule I will post on here. Tonight my mind is a little overwhelmed and I am little emotional. I am trying to stay positive, but also trying to figure out where my stopping point will be if this is not successful. At this point I am not sure my heart can take much more. I am going to continue praying and I believe God will lead Chris and I where we are suppose to go. Only Chris and I with God's guidance can decide that. Everyone in our lives will have to be ok with whatever we decide. The nurse tonight told us to make sure we have a backup plan since there is no guarantee this will work. I have faith in God and I know that whatever his plan is that it will happen. I a little scared of giving myself injections, but I am sure after a few injections I will be able to do it with no trouble. More than anything Chris and I need lots of prayers and LOTS of support through this emotional journey. Be a listening ear for us. That is what we need at this point.


I found this little picture and thought it was cute. :)

Injection update

I have had a few people ask how I am feeling after my Lupron injection so I will update on that today. First, I have been getting awful headaches that by the end of the day turn into a migraine. They are difficult for me to get rid of. I am having trouble sleeping and have been waking up between 3 and 4 every morning and can't fall back asleep. Not a fan of that because it makes me grumpy during the day. Last night I started sweating during the night..so we will see if that continues. Chris and I discussed how many injections I want to do and we have decided only to do two. I really don't like the way they make me feel at all, but in the long run if this helps us eventually conceive then I would do it all over again. Only two more weeks till our IVF class. I am getting excited to learn more and begin our next journey through all this.


Today I called my sweet husband after work and I was venting/complaining about how I am tired of all these headaches..and he said, "Babe if you want to stop treatments and start looking into adoption then we can." I know he feels bad that I have to go through all these treatments, but we will continue onto IVF. He is a sweet husband though!


On Saturday evening we had a slight scare because my back had a pretty big lump on it and it was painful. I went to Urgent Care to get it checked out and apparently I hurt myself. Haha..not sure what I did though! I am just glad it is not a reaction from my injection or an infection.